I've moved. Update your links to www.lost-avenue.blogspot.com, yo! :)

I think I want to go into journalism. :)

And damn, I can't wait to go overseas.

Badly need a change of scenery, it's too stifling here.

Sky High.

For some reason, I'm into Milo now.
*hums "It's marvellous what Milo can do for you!"*

Anyway, know how I haven't gotten my groove? Yeppers. Last night I was prepared to study then I looked through the past year PS papers and man, they scared me so much that I went straight to bed, curled up under my blanket. Hahaha makes for a funny sight, man.

But seriously. The questions were tough! I just realized that I really won't be able to bluff my way through. Only just realized it. *slaps forehead* And all this has to happen just when my confidence in PS as a major was boosted.

And now I can't sleep. I can't quite study because I'm scared and there seems to be so many information that I can't process it and I dare not focus on this because what if that comes out.

Aah. The familiar ramblings of last minute work.

I even went shopping yesterday! Bought myself a denim dress. Aaaaaah.



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The loves of my life:





- These two shots were taken this morning. I was bored, yo! I have a video of me disturbing Gandos while she was sleeping, because I can't leave people sleeping in peace, I tend to disturb and shake and irritate them. I think it runs in the family because for as long as I can remember, my sisters never let me sleep in peace and my mom, well, she simply nags at you til you get up just to shut her up, haha.

My mom surprised me with that on my table a few days ago. :)

But now she's in KL. She'll be there til next Friday I think and that feels like ages.

After my exams, we're going to Jakarta, whowee!

I'm tired. It's not from studying, because I haven't been doing much of that, but I'm just tired. Haha see yaa!

Unhappy thoughts aside,

I have yet to start studying.

Tomorrow, honeys, I resume my membership with AmoreFitness. I've decided to give it a go, again, because TrueYoga - albeit a very lovely place - is just too darn expensive. Especially with the two year contract.

So yeah. It's back to Amore for now. I can stop whenever I want to if I decide I don't like it anymore. What sparked this off? Partly the fact that I'm too lazy an ass to exercise on my own accord and because I miss kickboxingg! Although tomorrow's morning class is BellyBlitz [an incorporation of bellydance and aerobics] so maybe instead of toned thighs, I'll start off with a toned stomach, yeah? Yeahh.

Another reason to resume exercising is so that I can tire myself out so much that at night, I'll just fall asleep without much thought. Heh.

Attempts to study at Starbucks have been relatively futile because the outlet has so many pretty things [the mugs and stuff] that I start imagining how I'm going to decorate my own home when I grow up and then I get pissed that I don't have the moolah to buy those items. Hahaha. And the hot chocolate & caramel drink there is sooo good. :D

But milo still tastes better. :)

But oh, baby, you make me so sad and I just don't know why.

There have been so many unpublished entries in my blog lately that..I just don't care anymore.

I'm too jaded and I just want to go somewhere far, far away.

Call you up in the middle of the night
Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a slow torch burning
I was a key that could use a little turning

So tired that I couldn't even sleep
So many secrets I couldn't keep
Promised myself I wouldn't weep
One more promise I couldn't keep

It seems no one can help me now
I'm in too deep
There's no way out
This time I have really led myself astray

Runaway train never going back
Wrong way on a one way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here no there

Can you help me remember how to smile
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded
Life's mystery seems so faded

I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here I am just drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train

Everything is cut and dry
Day and night, earth and sky
Somehow I just don't believe it

Bought a ticket for a runaway train
Like a madman laughin' at the rain
Little out of touch, little insane
Just easier than dealing with the pain

Runaway train never comin' back
Runaway train tearin' up the track
Runaway train burnin' in my veins
Runaway but it always seems the same

Amidst the big mess surrounding my political science essay submission with the threat of penalizing me for a late submission [which it wasn't, by the way,] :

Dear Norshahira:

I have reviewed your essay and surprisingly it is a good job compared with the majority of other students. So I decide to give you the score you deserve purely reflected from what you have done in the paper.

Best!

Gao Dexiang, Darren
Graduate Student by Research,Political Science
National University of Singapore
Mail Address:
POLITICAL SCIENCE
ARTS & SOCIAL SCIENCES,NUS
11 ARTS LINK, AS1 4TH LEVEL
POST BOX 56
SINGAPORE 117570

Alhamdullilah. :D. Getting an okay grade for my other paper has also boosted my confidence in the upcoming exams. In the quest to become a PS major, I figure I now need to boost my confidence in speaking up in class. Remember all the times I really dreaded attending tutorials because man, the other students there were intimidating yet respectable at the same time.

I want to be like them. I want someone else to look at me and say, "Wow."

Past few days have been filled with unwinding. Going out with the girls to Sofra [and I actually said no to DXO, heh. =P] and later sampling funnily-flavoured ice-cream. I had the apple pie and horlicks flavours, same as Theresa.

Was good fun meeting them and catching. A really great evening. :)

I'm plenty tired.

Sleeping at 6am in the morning only to wake up a few hours later - gotta say, it's the first time ever I've done that. But hopefully all that hard work is going to be worth it. I'm very proud of my essays and let's pray that pride will be well placed, heh.

I drove to school twice this week, after two late nights [early mornings?] due to working on those two essays. My babies. The second time was a much much better attempt with no Malaysian buses bullying me and with me driving in the fastest lane and cutting the timing I had taken during the first time by about ten minutes.

Thursday. Is. Finally. Here.

First essay submission on Monday, SS test on Wednesday and second essay submission today followed by tuition [but I got my pay, yo!] made up for an exhausting few days.

*screams*